i'm always obsessed with something.

New goal for October! Blog here more often. I'm making a 4 time a week goal. I know...pretty lofty considering once a week is what I've been doing. And I actually just made that number up with no prior thought because if I write it down, it will happen. But honestly? I miss it. I just had dinner with my best friend from college and she told me her sister just got engaged (same age as my sis and the wedding will be one week after my sis's!). After discussing our maid-of-honor duties, I briefly considered starting a maid-of-honor blog and then stopped in my tracks. Um, time? Yeah, not there so much and I'd rather stay true to my Boston Girl blog roots.

Haven't done it in a while, so I'm doing it now.

Things I'm obsessed with right this second:

Peanut Butter & Co Peanut Butter

Hello. I wasn't aware that it was possible for me to like peanut butter even more than I already did. But alas, I was mistaken. This, my friends, is amazing. If I lived in NYC, I would probably move into at Peanut Butter & Co. but since I don't have that option open to me, I am grateful to the Gods who ship it to the Christmas Tree Shop and sell it for $2.99. If the Christmas Tree Shop is out of stock I will probably cry and beg someone to reorder (and I'm guessing they won't give a care about my PB woes). Or else I'll just have to pay the $6.99 for it online. Because it's worth it. I am going to buy so much of this stuff, it will hopefully last me years. Or a day.

My Filofax

No mine isn't pink; it's teal. But I had to purchase it since the normally priced $95 planner was on sale for $4.99. Though I figured I would use it for a week before it would be stashed in a drawer and forgotten, I had to buy it (because I am a girl and I cannot resist a sale). Little did I know at the time that I would become obsessed with it and get shaky when I temporarily misplace it. Did my life get busier? Probably. Do I have more planned in advance? Perhaps. Did I become more forgetful? Surely. In any event, I am madly in love with my Filofax and encourage all to purchase one. I actually think my life is getting more eventful because I own a Filofax and feel the need to keep it filled up. Can your planner do that?

Ryan Adams and the Cardinals Cardinology CD

It's no secret I'm a huge Ryan Adams fan. Any look at pretty much any entry on my blog will tell you that. And actually, before I started Tumbling, it was rare I came across any other RA fans. Now I almost feel like a follower/groupie because everyone on Tumblr seems obsessed with him (or maybe I have just finally found my people. I probably should just move to NYC now. Ooh, I'd get peanut butter too). Anyway, Ryan Adams and the Cardinals (Neil Casal, yay!) are coming out with their new CD, Cardinology, on October 28. I was all set to pre-order on iTunes when a thought crossed my mind. I want this CD in my hands. I want to look at the insert. I don't want to freak out if anything happens to my computer or my iTunes (OK so that was several thoughts). So, I decided I'm pre-ordering on Amazon instead. Can't even remember the last time I purchased a material CD, but I'm so excited to actually hold a CD again (maybe unreasonably so). I don't really get if Amazon will deliver it ON Oct. 28, but they better. Plus when I pre-ordered Harry Potter, UPS delivered at 8 a.m. on the day, so I have faith.

Dating Makes You Want to Die

This may be the best book ever. Don't laugh at me. Sara and I have a thing for "self-help" books and she tends to purchase them for me for holidays (um, trying to tell me something? Probably). Seriously though, last birthday it was Profiling Your Date: A Smart Woman's Guide to Evaluating a Man. The year before it was Dr. Phil's Love Smart. And for Christmas, The Guide to Getting it On. But Dating Makes You Want to Die is absolutely hilarious. You should read it even if you're in a relationship because it's that funny. My favorite line? In discussing why lunch dates are a bad idea, the authors say, "By the time you get home, you won't even remember eating lunch. You'll use this lack of memory as an excuse to watch more Fraiser and fill up on chocolate-covered popcorn. And then you will get fat and no one will love you. Because of your lunch date, you will die alone." Perfect? Yes.

getting away from it all. and re-organizing.

Sometimes I feel like I need to just get away. It's usually after particularly tough weeks, where I feel overwhelmed with my work, life, and pretty much just everything. I love my apartment, my friends, and all that, but sometimes I get major cabin fever and I just feel like I'm going crazy. Then it becomes impossible for me to get any work done and I just sit and stare off into space (True story. This happens when I get overwhelmed).

So when my mom asked me if I wanted to out to brunch, I immediately said "YES" (hi, The Fireplace, only one of my favorite brunch spots everrr). And when I complained about the amount of laundry I had to do, she told me to throw it in the car and I could do it at home. And then I got here and realized I really wasn't in the mood to go back to Boston.

I mean, I'm incredibly lucky to have the parents I do. I have the luxury of coming home, having meals made for me, and just relaxing with people who love me. And I think that might be something that's been missing in my life lately. I highly enjoy my life right now (minus the fact I still desperately need a job), but sometimes I feel like there aren't many people who care about me all that much. I mean, I know that's not true; I know people care about me. But everyone is so consumed with themselves and everyone is constantly talking crap and getting annoyed with everyone else. I know this because I'm guilty of it too. Sometimes I miss the kind of unconditional love I know my parents have for me.

Call it a quarter life crisis maybe, but things just feel a little overwhelming right now. I think my problem is that I want to do way too much. And I don't know how or when and I have trouble prioritizing and keeping myself organized.

After brunch today, my mom wanted to go to one of her favorite gift shops because they were allegedly having a big clearance sale. I whined about it because I wasn't in the mood to go and we had just been there a couple weeks ago. Like most clearance sales, I was pretty sure it would be just the junk on sale. And some of it was. But I also found the steal of the year. And I know some of you will really appreciate this (where are my personal planner obsessed friends at??). I found a pretty little $95 Filofax for...$4.99! Seriously! Granted it was for the year 2007. That just meant I had to purchase the 2008 Calendar insert for $11, so basically my $95 Filofax was $16. Can't beat that. I was hoping and praying that the Kate Spade planner I wanted was on sale, but obviously it was still $95. Sigh.

Seriously heaven.

$4.99 suckassss. I'm an amazing shopper.

Look, kids, there's a place for everything. I can even keep track of my expenses. Woot.

Oh come on, we all know I will I will not be organizing my expenses, but at least I can pretend (whatever makes me feel good, right). I mean, there's a slight chance this will help organize my life a bit. But more likely, I will use it for 2 weeks and then completely forget about it. Really, let's hope that doesn't happen.

I will now spend the rest of my time at home a) eating food that my parents lovingly cook me, b) sitting in the kitchen getting tons of work done, c) organizing myself, d) NOT being in my apartment, and e) chatting it up with my parents. I am so going to feel refreshed after this weekend. Thank youuu.

Oh and I kind of wish I was in Chicago right now. Not kind of, but really. That would have probably made me feel a lot better too. Sigh.