getting away from it all. and re-organizing.
So when my mom asked me if I wanted to out to brunch, I immediately said “YES” (hi, The Fireplace, only one of my favorite brunch spots everrr). And when I complained about the amount of laundry I had to do, she told me to throw it in the car and I could do it at home. And then I got here and realized I really wasn’t in the mood to go back to Boston.
I mean, I’m incredibly lucky to have the parents I do. I have the luxury of coming home, having meals made for me, and just relaxing with people who love me. And I think that might be something that’s been missing in my life lately. I highly enjoy my life right now (minus the fact I still desperately need a job), but sometimes I feel like there aren’t many people who care about me all that much. I mean, I know that’s not true; I know people care about me. But everyone is so consumed with themselves and everyone is constantly talking crap and getting annoyed with everyone else. I know this because I’m guilty of it too. Sometimes I miss the kind of unconditional love I know my parents have for me.
Call it a quarter life crisis maybe, but things just feel a little overwhelming right now. I think my problem is that I want to do way too much. And I don’t know how or when and I have trouble prioritizing and keeping myself organized.
After brunch today, my mom wanted to go to one of her
favorite gift shops because they were allegedly having a big clearance sale. I whined about it because I wasn’t in the mood to go and we had just been there a couple weeks ago. Like most clearance sales, I was pretty sure it would be just the junk on sale. And some of it was. But I also found the steal of the year. And I know some of you will really appreciate this (where are my personal planner obsessed friends at??). I found a pretty little $95 Filofax for…$4.99! Seriously! Granted it was for the year 2007. That just meant I had to purchase the 2008 Calendar insert for $11, so basically my $95 Filofax was $16. Can’t beat that. I was hoping and praying that the Kate Spade planner I wanted was on sale, but obviously it was still $95. Sigh.
Seriously heaven.
$4.99 suckassss. I’m an amazing shopper.
Look, kids, there’s a place for everything. I can even keep track of my expenses. Woot.
Oh come on, we all know I will I will not be organizing my expenses, but at least I can pretend (whatever makes me feel good, right). I mean, there’s a slight chance this will help organize my life a bit. But more likely, I will use it for 2 weeks and then completely forget about it. Really, let’s hope that doesn’t happen.
I will now spend the rest of my time at home a) eating food that my parents lovingly cook me, b) sitting in the kitchen getting tons of work done, c) organizing myself, d) NOT being in my apartment, and e) chatting it up with my parents. I am so going to feel refreshed after this weekend. Thank youuu.
Oh and I kind of wish I was in Chicago right now. Not kind of, but really. That would have probably made me feel a lot better too. Sigh.
February 17th, 2008 at 4:35 am
Well, if you ever feel like taking a mini-vacation, Arizona…more specifically Flagstaff…is the perfect place!
And don’t you dare try to out-do me and my FranklinCovey!
February 17th, 2008 at 6:42 am
well done on your bargain – that’s a pretty sweet deal! i hope you feel a little less overwhelmed soon.
February 17th, 2008 at 9:45 am
Glad you are having a relaxing weekend.
But, did you call us “suckassss?”
February 17th, 2008 at 12:00 pm
What a steal. I kind of love planners and organizing and all that jazz. Getting a new one reminds me of getting new school supplies (which i used to love).
February 17th, 2008 at 12:01 pm
That’s one thing I’m going to miss about living so close to my mom. Going home is truly a vacation, especially when you’re completely overwhelmed.
February 17th, 2008 at 12:30 pm
that planner! what a good bargain. freakin awesome. I was shopping around for one a while ago and they are so freakin expensive.
February 17th, 2008 at 12:36 pm
I have decided that i’m just going to hand over the blogging reigns of my blog to you because this post is EXACTLY what I have been feeling.
I just long sometimes to get out of the city but the family I have now all live in friggin MICHIGAN so i’m stuck in the city itching to get out. Glad you are having a relaxing weekend!
PS I may be slightly obsessed with daily organizers. Congrats on the awesome deal!
February 17th, 2008 at 12:55 pm
I love new planners. Of course they lose their excitement after about a week, but the initial opening and filling in…oh fun! It would have been awesome if you were here in Chicago last night! We’ll have to plan another one next time you’re in town.
February 17th, 2008 at 2:21 pm
i totally agree with basically everything you just said in this blog.
even though i was just away, i want to go away again. we need to stop talking about going to london and DO IT for a long weekend.
great find on the filofax!
February 17th, 2008 at 3:16 pm
Oh the parallels. Went out to the suburbs last night for similar reasons (+ a birthday). It’s tough because a lot of times I know I have great, loyal friends but not many “Up for anything!” friends in Chicago. Which is why it was sooo nice to have you in town!! And why we clearly would have loved to have you again! And will at some point but Boston first and I can’t wait!!
The planner is adorable by the way and nothing makes me feel less entangled than fresh laundry scent. I’m gonna go nap on a Bounce sheet cause that’s as close as I’ll get today.
February 17th, 2008 at 3:24 pm
Glad you were able to get home. Sometimes when I’m feeling like you were, I wish I lived closer than 400 miles to my family.
February 17th, 2008 at 4:09 pm
No! you couldn’t have been in chicago then because I am dying. When I am not sick, you can come and it will be amazing! haha
February 17th, 2008 at 4:58 pm
amazing deal on the planner. last year i found franklin covey (in august – not the time i need a planner, but still) at target. so cheap! and amazing.
and this quarter-life crisis? i nodded through the entire thing.
February 17th, 2008 at 8:48 pm
This really hit a chord: “sometimes I feel like there aren’t many people who care about me all that much.”
I have a ton of acquaintances, and I have some great friends, but they are all 2,000+ mi away, and I feel like we are all living our own lives independent of each other. Sometimes I feel stuck, and yet I know I’m not, with most things…which makes it that much more frustrating.
I miss having my folks closer (they use to be 2.5 hours away), and hopefully they can move closer when I finally settle down…but uh…yeah, settling down isn’t like it is around the corner either.
Sorry about the long post, it just hit close to home.
ps. Good bargain shopping!
February 18th, 2008 at 11:34 am
Well, I think $95 for a personal planner is way over-priced to begin with, but you can’t beat 5 bucks!
The harsh truth probably is most people don’t care about you all that much. I’ve always been fine with that. You can’t please everybody, and the ones who truly matter are your close friends anyway. You’ve got your core peeps and those on the fringe (what I call social friends–fun to hang out with, but definitely far from BFFs).
It’s selfish to expect people to have unconditional love for you, especially if you don’t do that yourself.
February 18th, 2008 at 1:50 pm
I’ve been feeling really overwhelmed lately too. By everything. I think a lot of it is the age and a lot of it is the endless possibilities. I’m finding it hard to crawl out from under it though.
February 19th, 2008 at 9:09 pm
What a steal!!! I had a Filofax before I made the big switch to Palm and loved it. The blue is divine.