i’m not sorry i met you, i’m not sorry it’s over.
Sighh. There are many things I don’t understand in life. One is why some people would rather be in a relationship with someone who sucks at life than be alone. Maybe I’m really full of myself? But I think I actually really like myself a lot. To the point where I enjoy my own company wayyy over a sucky person’s. Sometimes I even enjoy my own company over a halfway decent person’s. Sometimes even over a perfectly amazing person’s. Since I’ve been working from home during the day the past 6 months, I’ve spent a considerable amount of time alone and I feel like I’ve really gotten to know and truly like myself. I feel really bad for people who don’t or can’t do this. People who can’t be alone scare me. If you can’t be alone with yourself, why would anyone want to be alone with you?
“You cannot be lonely if you like the person you’re alone with” -Wayne Dyer
People disappoint me a lot. I truly believe in seeing the good in everyone. But there are so many people I know who have amazingly good hearts and are such good people, but suck at having personalities or doing the right thing when it gets down to it. I’ve been in enough relationships to know what I can get and what I deserve. And I know some people who haven’t been in any relationships and still know what they deserve and what they won’t settle for. It’s not about pickiness, it’s about finding your happiness. As far as I’m concerned, I’d rather be alone forever than be with someone I’m not totally into. Maybe I’m asking for too much…but I don’t think I am.
I guess I’ve just been discouraged by people lately and wonder if I’ll ever find someone who can make me as happy as I make myself. It’s only happened once before…and while he was an amazing person, he still wasn’t right for me. So, I guess it just makes me mad when I see people, especially friends, settle for less than they deserve. Because settling is something I’ll never do. I tried once, and it didn’t work out too well. Because no matter what, I know I deserve the best possible. And if I don’t believe that, who will?
“I’m proud of my life and the things that I have done. Proud of myself and the loner I’ve become.” -Say Anything
September 24th, 2007 at 10:27 pm
i really like this entry. in fact, i like all of your entries. they’re very insightful and thought provoking. this is really random; i googled “im not sorry i met you” and i ended up on your page. its ironic because i read your entry on how people google random things and end up on here. its amazing.
October 8th, 2007 at 10:10 am
amen to this!
it’s amazing 