A cloudy day is no match for a sunny disposition
People with bi-polar tendencies get on my nerves more than anything. You know the type of people where you never know how they’re going to be acting one day to the next. It’s like you have to walk up to them quietly on tiptoes; will they be in a good mood today or will they bite your head off?
There are two things about me that make me do really unwell around people like this. a) I am extra sensitive to people’s feelings and tend to over analyze the signs they give off. If I sense a difference in the way someone is acting, I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m not good at going with the flow in this sense since I get uncomfortable when people are acting pissed off and I tend to overcompensate with happiness. This probably does nothing but annoy the already pissed off person and make them want to slap me for talking incessantly in a cheery voice. And b) I am rarely ever in a bad mood. Or even when I am, I do my best to hide it as there is no sense in making other people uncomfortable/unhappy along with me. Sure, I can complain and bitch with the best of them, but not in a depressed, woe is me sort of way (or should I say woe is I??). I save my bad moods to myself and try to keep them confined to my bed.
I have a strong belief that we can always be happy if we choose to be happy. Sure, sometimes it’s easier to be depressed, but why do that to yourself? Being unhappy doesn’t get anyone anywhere and can make a lot of people uncomfortable in the process. Sometimes I think people actually enjoy being unhappy; in some ways I guess it can make life easier. But life is so short as it is; do you really want to look back on it and realize that you didn’t even try to enjoy it?
I don’t know why I’m in this philosophical mood tonight but I think I’m just realizing how many miserable people are out there, who quite honestly have nice lives and not much to be unhappy about. I like being happy and don’t want anyone to bring my mood down!
It’s possible that I’m overdoing it with the quotes but I’ve always had a thing for them.
“A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes.” -Hugh Downs
February 22nd, 2007 at 1:33 am
I dont have bipolar tendencies or anything. But I enjoy being unhappy. After weeks of being unhappy it gets boring, but in the early stages, its nice, wistful, you can have fun moaning (and my freinds love a good moan too so I dont feel too guilty), you can hide in your room and pine for things you’ll never have like omnipotence and omniscience, you can listen to sad music and mope and sigh and stare at the ceiling and lament that nothing will ever be the same.
Its fun, there is this tingly but lethargic energy about it.
I make sure to indulge in unhappyness every once and a while, otherwise I start to get misanthropic and I hate misanthropes.